Tuesday, November 1, 2011
The man from the gas company pulled up and checked out what it would take to put that little gas stove in- -600.00 for the stove and 600.00 each for two tanks of gas- so 1800.00 -but two of our trees would have to be severely trimmed and our two chairs would have to go- leaving just the couch that would hold 3 people. All of a sudden choices seemed so overwhelming that I think both of us were stuck. We thanked the young man for coming and then DH went in the back to pick up some wood and I finished up my little chicken. As I was working on the chicken a tv program called Dr. Oz came on and they were discussing end of life and if people should have the right to end their own life if they were in a terminal condition and in overwhelming pain. Back and forth the debate raged . I managed to stay neutral while I listened until they talked about a man with prostate cancer that had metastasized into the bones in his head and how his family had to watch him lay screaming in pain for the days that it took him to die. It was as if a cold scary hand reached into my heart with fear and dread and I turned it off and came to the sewing room to at least finish this project . Then I started to tremble and tremble and finally tremble all over like an earthquake in my body.
So tomorrow is another day - love to all.